Poll #4: How do you think about us Egyptian as whole?

So finally, now regardless of "we've kind hearts" and we "live in peace", and issues like that, I am talking professionally, what do you think about our value as "Egyptians" (only those who live inside Egypt) for the man kind?

And please give reasons for your opinion.

N.B: I don't hate being Egyptian, but I see a HUGE amount of negative issues more than any other nation in the history (as a nation which was one day the most advanced one on the planet)

Poll #3: How many Egyptian do you think will take any professional criticism personally?

Again, in continue for the last post, the final question:

If you went to your college, and told any professor that his way of teaching is not good and that you can't understand anything, what do you expect that he'll do?

1. Give you bad grades in his subject (or even make you fail in his subject)?
2. Tell you that you're rude and then you'll probably find that you've lost one year in the college (or may even lose the whole college).
3. Tell you "Thanks for letting me know, you're a honest person"?

Knowing the fact that you told him this sentence exactly:

"Dr. X, I am just having an opinion about the way you Sir are teaching us, I just don't like it because I can't understand very well from it, can you please Sir just try to make it slower?"

And just apply the same issue on any other person (police officer, your neighbour, etc).

Poll #2: How many people do you think will accept to marry a rapped girl?

In continue for the previous post, and taking this post as a reference, this time the question is simple:

We all know that when a girl is rapped that she's a victim, we all agree on this and I am sure than about 80%-90% of the population actually agree on this, but the question, how many people do you think will accept the following:

1. Marry the rapped girl (or letting their son marry her) and at the same time all the people around them know this fact (someone may marry a rapped girl as long as no one know this fact).
2. Accept her as a best friend for their daughter (again while all the people around them know that she's rapped).
3. Accept their daughter to bring her to the home normally.
4. Don't look into her as someone who "did sex before" and look into her as normal as them?
5. Finally, looking into her as a completely normal girl which doesn't have any difference than their virgin daughter or sister?

For me, I see that most of the population won't allow any of the above, so if anyone saw any case which is not like this, please let me know, because all the cases I knew about won't accept any of the above.

UPDATE: If you don't believe that this is true, and Egyptians will treat her well, then can you tell me why only 5%-10% of the rapped girls and rapped girls family actually report the rapping?(From ministry of interior reports and some un-official reports and organizations).

Because if people are treating them well, then why they don't report it?

Why they feel it's shame and they shouldn't report it?!

Poll #1: What do you think about Egyptian youth in colleges?

A debate has been going on lately about the current generations and whether they are good or they don't even deserve to get the free education they are getting, in my opinion, 85%-90% of the students in those college don't even deserve to be there for the following reasons:

A- Students in colleges like Arts, Law, Commerce, etc.

1. Most of them care only about what they will be wearing tomorrow, and how to approach the other sex, and how to get the most recent mobile phone and stuff like that.
2. They don't have any idea what they are doing in this college.
3. They don't have any plans for their future.
4. They hardly succeed in the college.
5. They graduated without any much knowledge about the issue they were studying.

B- Students in what called "Top Colleges" (i.e. Computer Science, Medicine, Engineering, etc), I'll be talking about Computer Science but I know that this issues apply on the other colleges from my friends inside them:

1. When you find a student who took a place in the college and doesn't even like computer (actually he/she hates computer so much!!!!)
2. When learning programming and computer science for him/her is only for the sake of getting higher grades.
3. When he/she is in his final year, and doesn't even know a very primitive terms like Object Oriented, break point, #include, namespace, dynamic link library, linker, etc (I am not talking about the meaning that you can get by typing define:word in Google, I am talking about understanding it).
4. When their graduation project is anything as long as it gives them more grades.
5. When they do the same subjects' projects without even looking into the code (just get the code from anyone).
6. When they ignore anything related to the field as long as it doesn't give them any additional grades.
7. When they look into anyone who do anything normal as a "genius".
8. When reading for them means "shit".
9. When talking with them in technology means that you either "a geek" or just "showing off" even if what you're talking about is really nothing!

I know that the system itself sucks, but I am talking about a specific issue, now knowing the fact that we got a percentage of about 10%-15% successful graduates from these colleges, then now we know that anyone could succeed inside, so if you failed, it's your fault.

Now to the poll question, do you agree with these issue and that they actually exist or not?

Apple: What's the deal?!

Few months ago I saw this video from that journalist in New York Times, and I just ignore it because it was unprofessional and very idiotic.

But when I see that Apple used the exact same points in that video in a public conference, this was really a surprise for me on how Apple is doing marketing as if they don’t have any real thing to do marketing for!!! (Especially after they was about to die before)

To summarize what they are talking about, they mentioned these points:

1. New Vista Search: in Mac OS it’s on the top and in Vista in the lower menu.
2. The Vista Calendar: that Mac OS has the same calendar.
3. The photo organizer.
4. The Chess game


Although as you see that the point mentioned above are far away from being “The OS Main Features Which proves that Vista is a copy of Mac OS” let’s answer them all:


1- New Vista Search:

Search was there in the start menu since the first windows version, it was a menu item and now it's a textbox!!!
And it was there in old windows with the same look like now if you installed Windows Desktop search (or even Google Desktop search) and have Windows Desktop Search bar on explorer, so it's not new at all!!!

2- The Calendar:
It was there since years, and it was there in office (i.e. Outlook) as well since years with the exact same interface!!


3- The photos Organizer:The interface was like this in Windows XP, the only addition is the shape which is ok now after the DX addition, and one more thing, does Mac OS X support the same feature in Vista Photos organizer exactly (I just saw the interface in the video), also Mac OS doesn’t have features like building DVDs on the fly.


4- The chess game: Since when built-in games are an OS feature which is used to identify an OS?!!!!!!
And for the chess game, did Mac invent the chess game?!!!!!!!!
It's just adding all popular games in the free games section, and you know what? Open the about section of the game: "Chess Titans developed for Microsoft Corporation by Oberon Games", mmm interesting, may be because Mac can’t have any more games so Chess will be a Mac OS feature!!

There's even a normal customer who said nearly the same as I said:



And about Mac OS, it’s not even a complete generic OS, it still doesn’t support some protocols, which makes it impossible for Mac machines from talking with some other machines over the network, also I am sure that APIs and framework are hard like hell, or how does it happen that there’s not much software products out there for Mac like Windows and Linux?!!


Now let’s jump into some Vista features, may be they are also copied from Mac and I don’t know!!

(original post in hany's blog: http://blogs.msdn.com/hanybarakat/archive/2007/05/04/windows-vista-must-know-features.aspx)

#1. SuperFetch:
SuperFetch is basically a feature where the OS collects information about how you use your computer, how do you open applications and what loads after what... etc. The OS uses these information to preloads your applications into your system memory so it'll be ready when you need them. Needless to say this saves a lot of time and increases the system response time and performance.

#2. ReadyBoost:
Windows Vista introduces Windows ReadyBoost, a new concept in adding memory to a system. You can use non-volatile flash memory, such as that on a universal serial bus (USB) flash drive, to improve performance without having to add additional memory. It's easy to use Windows ReadyBoost. When a removable memory device such as a USB flash drive or a secure digital (SD) memory card is first inserted into a port, Windows Vista checks to see if its performance is fast enough to work with Windows ReadyBoost. If so, you are asked if you want to use this device to speed up system performance. You can choose to allocate part of a USB drive's memory to speed up performance and use the remainder to store files.

#3. BitLocker Drive Encryption:
It's a data security feature introduced in Vista. BitLocker enhances data protection by bringing together two major sub-functions: drive encryption and the integrity checking of early boot components. By default it uses the AES encryption algorithm in CBC mode with a 128 bit key, combined with the Elephant diffuser for additional security.

#4. Built-in Diagnostics:
Windows Vista contains built-in diagnostics—collections of instrumentation, troubleshooting, and resolution logic—to resolve external problems that affect the way Windows Vista behaves. It provides a number of diagnostic scenarios—including Network Diagnostics and troubleshooting—to address some of the most common and costly problems facing PC users.

#5. Windows photo gallery:
Is now easier with features like fix (color, brightness, red-eye... etc.). The more amazing about the photo gallery is that you always have a saved original backup of the image no matter how many times you edit it. Windows Photo Gallery lets users organize their digital photo collection in its Gallery view, by adding titles, rating, captions, and custom metadata tags to photos.

#6. Parental Controls:
These controls help parents determine which games their children can play, which programs they can use, and which websites they can visit—and when. You can review easy-to-read activity reports that show how your children have been using the computer. Monitoring your children's computer behavior not only makes it easy for you to keep track of what they are seeing, hearing, and doing, but it also enables you to refine and modify parental controls based on actual feedback.

#7. Windows Defender:
Superior scanning and removal technologies use up-to-date spyware definitions created by Microsoft, with help from Windows Defender users who submit reports of potential new spyware.

#8. Backup and Restore Center:
The Backup and Restore Center gives you one place to manage all backup-related features. Windows Vista include a useful innovation to help you protect your data: Shadow Copy. This feature automatically creates point-in-time copies of files as you work, so you can quickly and easily retrieve versions of a document you may have accidentally deleted.

#9. Windows SideShow:
Wouldn't it be great if you could read an e-mail message, confirm a meeting location, or check a flight reservation without turning on your computer? Windows SideShow is a new technology in Windows Vista that supports a secondary screen on your mobile PC. With this additional display you can view important information whether your laptop is on, off, or in sleep mode.

91 more new features:
http://www.microsoft.com/windows/products/windowsvista/100reasons.mspx

Macworld Boston 1997-The Microsoft Deal

It's really weird how years can change people really much, in 1997 Microsoft Saved Apple's ass by buying $150 millions worth of shares (non-voting shares and MS agreed not to sell them for at least 3 years) in Apple to save its ass and save Steve from bankruptcy, and at that time Steve Jobs was very kind, and he said Microsoft is our friends, our partners, bla bla bla.

And after 10 years and when he came back by the help of Microsoft, he doesn't leave any moment without making fun of Microsoft and Windows!!

Really people are so bad, I am just putting this video as a quick reminder:

Free Software, How?!

It has been long time since I posted anything which has a lot of debate in the background, any way today I'll talk about the concept of Free Software (I am not talking about Open Source, the title is really obvious, it's about FREE SOFTWARE).

So now here you are what I am thinking, every single profession in the whole world is for money, Doctors earn money from sick people, mechanical engineers earn money from people who owns any mechanical equipments, plumbers earn money from people who need plumping, even Hookers gain money from people seeking pleasure, so as you see every freaken profession on the planet earn money from servicing people who need this profession's services, so why the hell software must be different?!!!

What's the different between someone who spends 8 hours a day writing code and someone else who spends 8 hours a day making sex for money?!!

What?! A hooker makes more efforts?!

How do people measure it here?! How do they think?!! In my opinion, if there's a service which need to be free, it will me medical services because this is something that no one can live without it, but in software it's different, software is luxury, it's either for business or entertainment, so it doesn't make any freaken sense for someone to spend 6 months working day and night for free for someone else to use his efforts to gain money, or for someone to use this software when he gets bored (i.e. computer game), so why a service which is a primary need for any human costs money and a luxury service like software needs to be for free?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


So now this is my $1,000,000 question for people who believes that software should be free:

How should software developers earn money?!!


I think I've some answers:

1- They should work on this in their spare time->whoever says this is an idiot because if this is the case, we'd return again into Stone Age.
2- They shouldn't seek money, they are doing this for mankind->Whoever say this is even more idiot that saying #1, I could accept this when I get medical services for free (in any time I should go to any doctor and do whatever I want for free), plumping services for free (in any time I should get a plumper to do whatever I want for free), hookers services for free (in any time I should get a hooker to do whatever I want for free), when all these services become free then we can accept that developers should work for mankind only!

You're more than welcome to give me any other reasons because I can't really understand the concept behind this strange wave!!!!

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هذا نص بريد الكترونى جائنى اليوم عن حادث فى ال MDC 2007

أزيكم ياشباب؟؟؟؟
Happy MDC
أنا هحكي قصه حصلت في أخر يوم
at session Mobile client SW factory by Eugenio Pace at Press Center
بعد ما أنتهت المحاضره الراجل بمنتهي الذوق والإحترام ادانا اسطوانات
windows mobile 5.0
وكان معاه كرتونه فحطها أمامه علي الأرض وكل واحد من الحاضرين يطلع يأخذ أسطوانه وطبعا كعادة الشعب المصري بيتقدموا بنظام وكل حاجه وما كانش فيه حد بيزق ولا حاجه ولا حد بيأخد أسطوانتين
المهم أنا كنت واقف جنبه علشان عايز أسأله علي حاجه ففيه واحده طلعتله وبتطلب منه أسطوانه فهو سأل
Edward Jezierski
بيقوله فين الإسطوانات فقعد يدور عليها ثم رد عليه رد
Box is gone
يعني لما واحد يأخد اسطوانتين ماشي يأخذ تلاته ماشي برضه أما يأخد الكرتونه بالإسطوانات ده بقي اللي عيب
ففيه واحد من الناس اللي واقفه بص لي وضحك و قالي جمله
Welcome to Egypt
وأنا بقي مش عارف هما سمعوها ولا لأ؟؟؟؟؟
وفي النهايه
Eugenio Pace
طلع أسطوانه من اللاب توب بتاعه وأدهالها بجد الراجل ده أخلاقه عاليه قوي وقالها
This is the latest one
ياجماعه عيب اللي بيحصل ده أحنا بنهين نفسنا وبنهينا بلدنا وبنهين أخلاقنا أتمني مثل هذا الموقف ما يحصلش تاني

انى اتسائل عما سيدور بذهن هذا الرجل من انا هؤلاء من افضل طبقات الشعب المصرى!!

New Rule

From now and then I won't reply on any dumb person, I'll just remove his/her comment, now the blog is not accepting dumbs anymore, simple rule simple action, so if your IQ is enough to enable you to understand human speech, then you are more than welcome, but if your IQ is not enough for that and your name is beginning with SOHA then you're not

Cheers!

Revisiting some old stuff

Since I didn't post anything new for a long time, I picked my blog and start reading in some old posts, for unknown reasons, I felt like I want to post these posts again:

IBM Interview Part A
IBM Interview Part B

Just enjoy them again :D

Open Source (Free version), How Comes?!!!

I am just wondering about Open Source principals, yes, I could understand that people asking for software code to be opened for learning purpose, or for the development of software as whole, but what I don't understand and not convinced with at all:

1- People whom are convinced with Open Source principals believe that all closed source companies are evil, which is not reasonable at all, because why we don't do the same with other professional services, I mean why you can't go for a lawyer asking him to show all his work secrets with you and when he don't do this, then he's evil?!
Why?!

2- The "Software for free" principal is not reasonable at all, why developers only?!Why we can't see doctors for free, lawyers for free, engineers for free, teachers for free, books for free, etc, why developers only?!Aren't they humans that need money to live?!Aren't they spending the same time (and even more), and spend more money than lawyers and doctors as example?!Why it's normal for the first to sell their services for free and when the second group does the same they are evil?!

I may got some answers like: "Open source doesn't sell the product, but they sell the services for this product", they may be OK for an OS or RDBMS, but what about software which doesn't require any kind of services like Games, small software like graphics packages, like mathematical packages, word processing, etc, is it reasonable for some one to spend a year or more working day and night for nothing and the people whom are using his work and whom spent the same time in their work (like doctors and lawyers) get more money and get a car and home and then get his work for free while when he's seek or asking about law advice is going to pay for them, is this reasonable and fair for me to do job for you for free and when I ask the same for you to pay?!!!

It may be because most of the Egyptians I met are thinking that Open Source = Free which is not the case, this may be the reason, I don't know!

I really want to know how it's working as it doesn't make any sense at all!!!

Wondering

This post is gonna be some how technical, as during the last days I kept asking myself this question:

Why usually every student in computer science is thinking about either:

1- Making a new Operating System.
2- Making a new RDBMS.
3- Making a new programming language.



And everytime you ask someone why you think about this?

You got these answers:

1- For learning (this is the only good answer).
2- For making something for us to work with.

The main problem here that they never ask them selves a very simple question:

What we'll add by making this project?!!


Because anyone could build kernel with it's loaded in less than 10 months, this is not the problem here, I'll give you a very simple and very known example, Linux OS, can you tell me during the early releases of Linux, why could someone stop using Unix and use Linux?!

Simply because Linux is free.

Now lets imagine that Linux was in the same price as Unix, now everyone could think in this way and make this comparison:


Unix Linux

Not Free Not Free
Unix arc. Unix arc.
Well tested for years and having good support New and using it may be risky


So now, would any one try to make his business on Linux?!
Of course not, give me one reason for this!!


Now let's return back to our point, every one from those people, just tells me that he's reading now in Linux source code and start making his own OS!!!

So the question here, what's new here?!
It's still using Unix-Like Arc., even you can't make a community for it as no one will leave Linux community and come to work in exactly the same (let's say that he/she can do it exactly the same like Linux which is hard) arc. and start again from scratch to reach the same result?!!!

No one ever thinks like that.

If it's for learning, then look around you, there're dozens of loaders and kernels every where, ask your self why people haven't completed it to be a complete OS?!!

For the same reason, why re-invent the wheel?!

Why start walking in a street and you know well that at the end you'll be ending on the same place others are beginning now?!!

If you really wanna make a new OS, then make your own arch., invent something new, something which will let the people say: "Hey, this OS is totally new, let's try it".

Because the idea of the Re-Make may be good in movies, in songs, but in software, it's useless, totally mess.

The something happened in making a new programming language, they just try to make a new programming language by just changing the syntax, the question again, why?!!

If you tell me as example that you would make Arabic syntax programming language I may agree with you (although you can build an addition layer over any existing programming language like C/C++ to translate your new syntax to the old one, in other words, just build the parse tree and pass it to the old compiler), why I could leave X language and go to Y language and the only difference that instead of writing int Variable, I'll write Variable int, or things like that, this is also worth nothing, total mess.

Imagine now that someone spent 5 years from his life and then came after that saying: "Heyyy, I invented a wheel from scratch, I didn't use any already made materials, I built it from the ground zero"

What you'll tell him?!
Simply: "Are you fool?!!!
Why you could spend 5 years from your life making something useless like that?!!"

But if he came and said that the wheel he invented is multi-size, or can't be exploded, or anything like that, this will be useful.


My final comment, there're a lot of wheels out there, either use them, or if you don't like to use them, build a spaceship, no one needs more wheels here!

For Egyptians (Especially MSN and ICQ users)

Deh kanet post katabtaha abl keda fel blog el tany, mesh 3aref 7ases eni 3ayez aktebha hena tany.

El mohem, heya betetkawen min so2al wa7ed min goz2en, eli ye3raf yegaweb 3aleh abl mayshof el 7al, yeb2a tamam:

1- Leh samo el nafora nafora, ya3ni leh masamohash safora, bafora, eshme3na nafora?!
2- El 7ashesh eli beyetshereb, leh samoh 7ashesh?!
Leh mesh wara2 3enab, gawafa, moz, eshme3na 7ashesh?!!

Fakar shewaya fel 7al, law ma3reftesh el egaba, shof el full post ;)


Now ba2a negy lel egaba, bey2olak zaman 2wy 2wy ayam el denasorat keda, we ayam lama kan el ensan lesa geded fel kar, kan feh wa7ed esmo 3am 7ashesh, el ragel dah kan sha3'al ba7'a7', aslo kan ragel lazloz keda we bo2o keber 2wy, fa kano bey2agaroh yemla bo2o maya we yes2y el genina 2w ye7'sel el denasorat, keda ya3ni.

El mohem el ragel dah kan beyelbes fostan 3ageb 2wy, kan mesameh el nafora 3ala esm gedo el akbar, maho el ragel esmo 7ashesh nafora.

El mohem el ragel dah lama kan 7ad yes2al 3ayez ba7'a7', kano ye2ololo ro7 le 7ashesh el nafora, ba3d fatra keda e7'tasaro el esm we samoh el nafora bas, we deh egabet el goz2 el 2wal

Tab we asl kelmet 7ashesh?!

Beyo7ka en fe yom min el ayam, 3am 7ashesh kan 3amal yebo7' kal 3ada 7awalen magles edaret marage7 moled el naby 3alashan yetary el 23da 3alehom, we homa sa3etha kano beyetna2sho fe moshkela gamda gedan, ela waheya enohom min sa3et lama fata7o 7adeket el denasorat beta3ethom, kano 7aten range fe rashom en kol esbo3 momken el denasorat takol 12 zebon, laken eli 7asal en el denasorat kanet betakol fel motawaset 40 zebon, fa egtama3o 3alashan ye7elo el moshkela deh.

El mohem nerga3 le 3am 7ashesh, yomha 7'adeto el galala 2wy, fa mala bo2o gamed, 2am bo2o nasha3, ba3d lama ba7' el maya kolaha, 7ab yenashefo 3alashan 7'alas kan 2arab yebosh, 2am 3amal eih?!

nat 3al ard gab 7eta min shagar 3'areb keda we kalha ba3d lama nada3'ha, el mohem ba3d shewaya howa kalo min hena we rabena maywareko 3ali 7asal, 23ad yemla bo2o maya we yebo7' 3al nas we 3amal yed7ak we yed7ak, we yegry fel 7eta zay el 3abet keda we kol shewaya yebo7' 3al nas le7ad lama 7aset el karsa.

wa7ed min beto3 magles edaret marage7 moled el naby kan raken el T-Rex beta3o 3ala ganb, wel T-Rex kan 2a3ed mostagem 2wy fel shams, el moseba en 3am 7ashesh lama bas 3aleh we min kotr mahowa kan mastol, eftakaro komodeno, 2am ba7' 3aleh maya, fa el denasor etdaye2, 2am kal 3am 7ashesh.

El mohem, el nas 7alelo eli fadel min 3am 7ashesh we ektashafo en el nabat el 3ageb dah howa eli 3amal keda, We ta7'ledan le zekra 3am 7ashesh, samo el nabat dah 7ashesh we heya deh keset el 7ashesh eli el 7ashashen beyeshraboh till now we deh egabet el so2al el tany.

Tab3an now fadel goz2 mohem gedan, we howa el deros el mostafada min el kesa deh:

1- Lama tekon 3ayez tenashef bo2ak, eb3ed 3an el 7ashesh.
2- Heya 7elwa gedan enak tebo7' maya 3al nas, bas eb3ed 3an el denasorat eli betetshames.
3- 7esak 3enak tebo7' 2y maya 3ala 2y komodeno ba3d keda a7san yetla3 denasor
4- 7ot fe rasak en law el denasor kalam, momken yesamo el 7ashesh 3ala esmak, we deh el meza el wa7eda fe 2y wa7ed el denasor yaklo

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Today I read a story (which I'll put at the end of this post), which made me really hate Egypt and hate Egyptians and hate being Egyptian as much as you could imagine! Really if this story is true, we'll be the worst nation ever in the whole history, to this extend we're awful, crazy and full of shit?! I can't find enough words to describe what I felt when I read this story! Let's read it first then return back and put more comments on it:

بريد أهرام الجمعة

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سيدي‏..‏ لم أكن أفهم منذ طفولتي المعني المتكرر في الأفلام والقصص فقدت أعز ما تملكه الفتاة‏,‏ وشاءت الأقدار أن أفهمه مبكرا‏,‏ فيما أودع طفولتي البريئة‏..‏ فهمت المعني وفهمت أيضا أشياء كثيرة‏,‏ لم أتمن يوما أن أفهمها‏!

‏فقدت أعز ما تملكه الفتاة بعد اتمام عامي السادس عشر بأيام معدودة‏..‏ لقد كنت ضحية اعتداء من سائق تاكسي واثنين من أصدقائه‏..‏ لن أذكر ماحدث ليس بحجة نسيانه‏,‏ فإنه يحيا بداخلي لأني مازلت أتذكر كل لحظة‏..‏ كان يغشي علي من كثرة الألم ثم أفيق أتألم وأبكي حتي أقع مغشيا علي ثانية‏..‏ كانت أربعة أيام‏..‏ عدت بعدها إلي أمي التي كادت تموت من كثرة البكاء علي‏..‏ عدت لأبي الذي لم يترك مكانا إلا وسأل عني فيه‏..

‏لم أبدأ أشعر بما حولي إلا بعد ثلاثة أيام‏..‏ كنت حامدة لله وشاكرة له لعودتي لأني لم أتصور أني سوف أعود أبدا‏..‏ لكن عندما نظرت حولي لم أجد أحدا سعيدا بعودتي‏.‏ لقد صدمت لهذا‏,‏ فأنا بالنسبة لهم سودت وجوههم وجلبت لهم العار‏,‏ كانت المرة الأولي التي بدأت أنظر لما حدث وأستوعبه‏,‏ لم يسألني أحد أين كنت؟ بل قالوا لي إنهم لا يريدون أن يعرفوا‏.‏ المهم أني بينهم الآن‏..‏ كانوا يقولونها‏.‏ وهم يوارون عيونهم عني‏,‏ أردت أن يربت أبي علي كتفي‏,‏ أن تقول لي والدتي إن كل شئ سيكون بخير‏,‏ أن أروي ما حدث وأبكي وأصرخ‏..‏ أردت من أختي أن تبتسم في وجهي وأن تأخذني في حضنها بحنان‏..‏ أردت أن تثور عائلتي وأن يأخذوا الثأر لشرفي‏..

‏لقد كنت خائفة‏,‏ ضعيفة‏,‏ هشة‏,‏ لكن أحدا لم يرد أن يسمع‏..‏ فقط سألني أبي إن كان حدث شئ؟ هززت رأسي له باكية‏..‏ أي نعم ــ وأخذت أبحث عن كتفه لأستند عليها وأروي له‏,‏ لكنه استوقفني وقال لي انه لا يريد أن يعرف كيف حدث هذا وأمارات الألم علي وجهه‏,‏ ولمح لي ألا أقول شيئا لأحد خوفا من الفضيحة‏...‏ هذا أفضل لي ولمستقبلي‏.‏

ولقد كنت قوية والحمد لله‏..‏ ووقفت ثانية لأواجه حياتي‏..‏ لكن لم أكن نفس الفتاة التي كنتها‏,‏ فهذا المعتدي لم يأخذ مجرد غشاء‏,‏ ولكنه أخذ معه شيئا آخر‏..‏ أخذ معه الإحساس بالأمان وكسر معه شيئا بداخلي‏.‏ ورجعت لحياتي بعد معافاة آلام جسدي‏,‏ لكن لم أجد أصدقاء يهنئونني بعودتي‏..‏ لم أجد زميلا أو زميلة يساعدانني علي اجتياز هذه المرحلة‏,‏ بل وجدت زملائي هم أعدائي الذين وجدوني مادة ملائمة للشائعات‏..‏ أبواب البيوت تغلق في وجهي‏..‏ لم يعد أحد يتصل بي‏,‏ ولا أجد أحدا عندما اتصل أنا‏..‏ وإذا وجدت إنسانة تدافع عني يمنعها والدها من صحبتي فتقاطعني نهائيا‏..‏ في المدرسة الكل ينظرون ويتهامسون‏,‏ حتي مدرسي لم تعد معاملتهم محبة لتلميذتهم النجيبة‏..‏ بل كانت جافة مشمئزة‏..‏ مستهزئة‏.‏

كنت أتألم كثيرا عندما لا أجد أحدا يريد أن يجلس بجانبي في المدرسة أو في الدروس الخصوصية‏..‏ كنت أجلس وحيدة في مكان يتسع لأربع طالبات‏..‏ لم أشتك أو أشرك أهلي مرة ثانية‏..‏ فكفاهم مامروا به‏..‏ لقد عوملت كأني أنا المذنبة‏,‏ حتي صرت أشعر فعلا بأني مخطئة‏..‏ لقد كنت أدخل للاستحمام في اليوم الواحد أكثر من خمس مرات لإحساسي بأني لست طاهرة‏.‏

سيدي إنني أواجه الكثير من العروض لحياة الرذيلة والوقوع فيها‏,‏ إنني أقاوم شياطين الانس هنا‏...‏ أحاول صابرة ألا أضعف وأن أكون من عباد الله الصابرين‏..‏ فبماذا ترد علي‏..‏ بماذا تنصحني؟

في نفس الوقت أتمني أن تقرأ أمي هذه الرسالة الآن أو والدة أي فتاة أخري تعرضت لمثل هذه الظروف‏..‏ أمي‏..‏ أعرف أن سنين مرت علي هذه الحادثة‏..‏ لكني أراها في عينيك وبين كلماتك‏..‏ أريدك فقط أن تعلمي أنني أحبك كثيرا يا أماه‏..‏ لم أقصد في أي يوم أن أجرحك أو أن أشعرك بالعار‏..‏ هل تعتقدين أن طفلتك الصغيرة تريد لك هذا‏..‏ هل تعرفين كم أحتاج إلي حضنك الذي تحرمينني منه‏..‏ أماه أنا في أمس الحاجة إليك‏..‏ أرجوك كفي جفاء ويا أبي أنا لم أفقد الأمل بعد‏....‏ ومازلت أعمل علي إكمال حلمي القديم بحياة مستقرة وناجحة لأجعلكما يوما ــ تنظران لي وتقولان بكل فخر‏..‏ هذه ابنتنا‏

Do you see the amount of pain she's in?!!

What the fuck did she make in order to be treated like that from everyone around her?!!!

Aren't you with me that we're the worst nation ever to treat someone like that on something which is not her mistake at all?!!

In the west when someone like her who goes through the same experience, everyone would stand beside her, in order to make her feel safe again, but not to make this and treat her like she's the one who raped not the one who's raped!!!!!

For me, I don't care if I married someone like her, not only this, but if I met someone whom I was gonna marry, and knew that this happened to her, this will make me want her more, not run away from her!!!!!!

Really I am so angry because of this, and really it's the first time in my life to hate being Egyptian at all, this is not even related to Islam or Christianity or anything, it's just shit!!!

Really shit!!!

The other face of "FREEDOM"

Just see!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :
http://media.guardian.co.uk/site/story/0,,1703500,00.html